smlm

yesterday was a terrific bad day
i almost bumped a motorbike, which suddenly appear at my left side of car.
well, almost .

what do you do when your boyfriend all of sudden says something that you cannot accept?
well, i need to thank you to Allah.
He gives me this strength to stay calm and patient.
I couldn't bear this :( i couldn't but i should.

who supposed to be my best partner? *gone.
who supposed to share with me the good and the bad? *gone
who supposed to be my best shoulder to lend for me to cry on :(( * sadly gone.
who supposed to replace you when you were gone? * nobody darling.

dear my best partner,
you are the greatest thing that never happens on me.
you are the most expensive precious treasure i have.
if i need to let you go, i will let you go.
i trust Allah gives the best fate to His servant & humankind.

but please if i let you go,
do not turn back on me.
do not give me your hopes again.
i am exhausted with all this sad & devastated feelings.
waiting for you is like an eternity
but you will go, all of sudden.

if one find day, you turn back,
and once more you open the door,
i believe that my heart does go on.
i don't want you to feel sorry for me,
i don't want you to be by my side to tell me that everything's alright.
i just want you to tell me the truth, you know i'd do that for you.
so, why ? could you give me the most relevant factor?

i didn't know that for you, a year relationship is not long enough.
i will pray for your best
selamat tinggal sayang