you will leave me don't you?

" you will walk away, do you? "
" i don't know. i didn't decide it yet "
" okay. "

i don't know how are my feelings.
i didn't feel sad, well, so sad like last 2 nights.
i didn't feel mad at you, at all.
maybe i can bear this fact that you will decide to leave me, perhaps.

you told me yesterday , if you leave me :
" i still want to keep in touch with you. "
" i still want to be your friend."
" you still can cry on my shoulder."

you are saying it with no doubt, don't you?

dear god - avenged sevenfold

" dear god.. the only thing i ask from you is to hold her when i'm not around "

well dear,
i pray for your best life.
dear god, forgive him.

opick - ketika cinta

ketika cinta memanggil, hangatnya nafasku
ketika cinta memanggil menderusan pilu. :(
rindu rindu rindu kamu.
memanggil2 namamu.

anang - separuh jiwaku pergi

kau khianati hati ini, kau curangi aku. x(

lots of songs keep rolling their own melody in my mind.
i often speak to my mind,
" this wasn't so bad. if he will go, do not chase him. a better person will look for you. maybe he's not your fate. "

but i feel so terrible this few days.
eat? seldom. bathroom? lazy. talk? only with my cousin.
at home? i am being so very quite person.

maybe my parent can looks my changes.
well, sorry. i feel devastated. i feel lonesome.

i will have a good day, am i?
yes. i will.
i have a lots of friend. and i love them so much.
they love me also :))

my friend, pls be my antidote for this pain.
ya Allah, pls give me enough strength.

keep smiling Fas ;)