irreplaceable

you've been watching me a lot.
you know my current stories, my updated status, because you are viewing me from here.
you use my DiarySufi to stay update with my current mood, current problems, and etc.
I never know where were you, where are you, where will you be.
you never told me your past location, current location, and your future location.
Last time you were at Makkah. but now, where are you?
instead of Dubai which you always been there, will you be here in Malaysia? when?
will you be here this Raya?

I know that you are watching me. everyday, with stats of viewing from Blackberry windows,
from United States, two times for today, for this week. are you there?
it has been a year with lost communication,
don't tell me that you lost my number again.
I always wanted to change my number, but when I think of you, ........ *sighing*

say something, a good bye perhaps.
something that can stop me from thinking and waiting
I have been learning to speak like you, in accent that you are using.
and you use to learn Arabic, just to understand what am I asking.
but then you gone, again. flight off to somewhere which I never know where.

you are irreplaceable.

you are the only one, the one that I used to wait, since I was sixteen.