i wanna tell you about an unknown person
who i idolized him, personally
who i concerned, mostly

i just know him by his name
never meet him although we are seriously nearby,
although he already waiting for me outside the college
he, who i know, since i am sixteen,
but we haven't met till present
and he never sighing about my wants,
" i don't wanna meet you."
 " why??"
" because i cant!"
 " Linn..i am driving around your place right now."
" seriously? but.. sorry, i can't."
*do i dissapoint you?

why do i idolized him?
he knows everything,

he remember my first promise, which i already forget
but till today, i still cannot remember it,
although he asked me to think again.

he who suddenly appeared,
who suddenly gone.
his missing makes me crazy, and full with wonder.
his present makes me thinking, but full with laughter.

he is a very cold type.
he called me with an 'unknown number',
maybe he didnt want me to bug him when he is working, if i know his number.
never mind. he has the right.

he loves to make me waiting.
he never told me where has he been,
when i was asking him, 'where are you?'
he answered me with, 'somewhere.'
' you know what, i am at dubai right now.. and.. oops! did i told you my location?'
 'haha ok then, min aina ila aina?', i asked
' i told you, from somewhere to somewhere. i understand arabic ok.'
then he makes me smile.

a called from unknown number again,
as usual, i am rushing to pick it up,
because i know,
3 missed calls, i'll make him not to call me again in a long period.
" yes? "
 " hey. you buat apa? "
" siapa ni?", just to make sure
" i am someone. "
 " who? "
" someone..."
 " ok. masmuka? "
" ismi Taqi.."
 " HA HA HA. you told me your nameee..."
" eish! macamane boleh terkena ni. "
:)

if i said,
' i miss you. '
he replied me proudly,
' i knoww..'
then he makes me smile for the thousand time.

dear cold type man,
my mister glove who promise me sweet things,
'mister glove'?
he wanna slap me on my face, but he answered me with,
" i think i wanna open a glove's shop. "
 " why? ", i asked
" because i will have free glove when i wanna slap you. mane boleh sentuh your skin."
 " if you slap me, i'll slap you back."
" see! that's how my business' going. you need to buy my glove! Hahaha "
haisyo. this mann aaaaaa :)

the stranger who heard me a song, but i didnt listen to it clearly,
the unknown caller who told me about your past,
and made me cry, hardly.
the only person who can 'layan' my nonsense story,
and end up with your seriously ridiculous nonsense story,
"hey, is it me who's talking crap here or you?"
 " you."

where are you? come back here soon,
tell me about the world,
tell me about your day,
as you always did.
"i wanted to have Ramadhan at Makkah."

tell me the sentence that i really miss to hear from you
the sentence that hurt me at first, but makes me happy at the end,
tell me..
" lin, you are so irritating, but sweeeet."
then i heard your 'hehe' smile and laughing.
you know i will sighing .. *mengalahhh jelahhh

call me if you are home,
tell me the great plans,
about the weekends that we will spend together,
about the saturdays,
about the plans after i finished my study.
tell me...
because i miss to hear,
"my plan doesn't work with you. i wonder why. do you hate me Lin?"

i miss to hear your lecture,
" Lin, do you know what is Husnul Khatimah? "
 " no, i tak tahu USTADDD.."
" you was an ustazah kan? "
 " I WAS.. but i didnt know much as you Ustadddd..."
"i bukan ustad. ustad mane ade mengurat anak dara org malam2 mcmni."
a late night call. from 11pm to 3am.
he end up the call just because his phone is out of battery.

you are a great babbler!
you motivate me the most.
you told me about the something worth,
but. you are the 'thing' that mostly worth.

you said that you dont know how i feel,
because you never be in my shoes,
and you never faced such situations.

" lin, you are great enough. you are strong in a very young age,
  the others are enjoying, you are pretend you are not suffering.
  and i have been spoiled by my parents. you make me sad because i cannot help you out."
i was touched. snobbish concerned man.

when i asked,
" can i have your picture? only a.."
you answered me with,
" tu laa you, i nak bagi the real me, you nak gambar je, apelahh."
 " only a picture..!"
" if you want my picture, you'll never get me."
then you make me speechless. =_="

but you dissapeared again.
after the 3 missed calls.
"i didnt answer your call, because i was in a test."
i wish i could tell you that. :"(
but what to do? you dah hilang balik dahhh..

nobody can replace you.
you are the first person who didnt like my "FAS" nickname.
" what should i addressed you after 2 years?"
 " my friends call me Fas."
" eiii. tak bestnye nama tu!" ek? sukahatiii dia jee..
 "i suke Lin. so Lin, whats your plan this weekend?"
*dia dah mula dahhh dengan plan diaaa... haihhh

oh man, i miss your 'many' mouthes.
you are the only person who can makes me smile for the whole day.

i've told you about my ex, and i've told you he lives in Temerloh,
and in your journey to yourrrr "somewhere", you said to me ,
" oh do you wanna know Lin?! I just passed by Temerloh. HA HA HA.."
you are sooo good in teasing me.
yes. and for the several time, you called me,
with a 'strange unknown' voice',
"can i speak to Lin?"
 " who's this?"
"your secret admirer."
then i end up the call, and you called me again,
" sesuka hati je you putuskan line! you ingat senang ke i nak call you!"
 " yelah, i tak kenal you! you siapa?!"
" i daripada panggilan hangittt.. HA HA HA."
by your laugh, i know it's you :)
thus, does the 'secret admirer' still true?

i've ask you,
"sincere to me, are you married?"
 " yes, i am married."
"with whom? why i never know."*gulping
 " You know.. I am married with my work."
then i am sighing. stop with the teasing method please.
with his english american accents,i am proud with that.

now, i miss you. you said you dont wanna call me so often.
at least 2 times a month,
"bila rindu lagi best nak borak", you kata
now, it is more than 4 months,
you want me to wait you for 2 years, again?
call me and say,
" Lin, this song is for you."
i wanna be silent, trying to hear the song which isn't sounds familiar to my ear.
and you know it will end up dengan, " eiii, lagu apa tuh? "
then you will say, " oh man! apelahh.. i am trying to be romantic here, you boleh tak tahuu tu lagu ape. "
:))
please call me and laugh.

my friends hate you because you suddenly put off the phone when my friends were answering it while i was
in the toilet or somewhere.
" why you pick off the phone? my friend is talking to you. You make them mad."
 " I dont speak to strangers."
you are so snobbish in their sight. but i know you well. kan?


dear mister,
Thanks for the memories.
you win the award of the best man ever.

" ok, from range 1-100, where will I be?"
 " why 1-100? 1-10 je la..", i answered.
" no, 1-100."
 " ok, your range is... em.. 70? 80?"
" sikitnya! sincerely from your heart. come on.."
 " ok. 99.9999999.. satisfied?"
" yes. Lin.. i know you are smiling.. "
gulp! speechless..again. =_="

if you call me in the future, i wanna say to you..
" can our conversation be in malay? i am tired to speak in english.."
and i know you will say,
" i don't know malay much. pelatt.. HA HA HA."
zZz.. you, always you.